I was inspired by a small business in my community called Wild Beginnings who just created some chicken and duckling earrings. I wanted to have fun with Ai and see what I could create. This is not the video I created for the business just for fun but it is an additional one that I thought I would share. Thanks to Microsoft Designer and Abacus Chat LLM for the assist.

Originally posted on my Medium Page 1. If you believe a manifestation has already happened, it cannot be separate from you so therefore it belongs to you and will come to you no matter what happens. 2. There is a sense of peace, trust and clarity that comes from believing in what you want to manifest has already happened, hence all you need to do is allow which releases the question in the mind and the spiraling. 3. If you understand that the surprises and leaps will come in ways you have never experience or cannot expect, that releases the need to search and fixate. You have no choice but to receive or resist but receiving is less work and more bliss. 4. You have more control over your mind than you think and therefore are truly more than the creator of your life than you are the victim. 5. Everything is truly energy and everything that we think truly matters (money, status, love, etc.) means nothing outside of what we appoint to each in regard to value. Hence what we appoint or say is the meaning of each is reflected back to us. For example, money is energy but we often thing of it only physically. We believe that it will make our life great. While it is helpful it is not the end all be all. Neither is anything else. The end all be all is us and who we choose to be each day. 6. We can change our life and who we choose to be each day; however, we often project the past onto the future and so we assume today will suck because yesterday did or that nothing great will happen tomorrow because nothing great happened today. But that is untrue. Each day is new and since our body changes (new liver in 30 days, all atoms in our body are replaced in a 1 year etc., so I heard) we physically can be a different person on a different day which means that if we tune into our minds, thoughts and emotions we can be a different person at any given second. 7. When you don’t give power to things you become free. I realized today when I was meditating that I thought I wanted money to pay my debts but I realize I wanted to be free of them. When I think about being free, technically I am free right now. I could ignore my debts, and they will play out and I may have to go down before I get up but truly, they have no control over me because they are not life and death. Lack of money or financial debt can’t kill someone, but a mindset can so if I am free in mind I’m free in my reality and therefore if my reality is reflection of me. Then if I am free then my reality must adjust to my belief. Thoughts?

My Ideas 🧠 BUSINESS + BRANDING IDEAS 1. GrandValli Studio (Core Venture) A hybrid creative studio + storytelling platform Focuses on overlooked and underestimated small businesses, creatives, and entrepreneurs Expanding GrandValli into a world/ecosystem with: Podcasts Documentaries Children's books Mini animations Reels / scene-based brand storytelling Digital products (planners, e-books) Event sponsorships & pop-ups 2. Revenue Ideas for GrandValli $100K–$400K sponsorship packages Content licensing (photos, videos, animations) Paid client services (brand storytelling, video, social media, etc.) Merchandise (bucket hats, tees, journals, planners) Online courses/workshops led by GrandValli creators Studio services for brands (especially smaller or daring ones like local sneaker brands, reusable water bottle brands, notebooks) Potential franchise model across cities 3. Products & Digital Sales The Sacred Middle Planner  (for visionaries navigating the in-between) Mini e-books for creatives Short stories (fantasy/emotionally-driven) Pinterest sales strategy (100 pins = test for traffic) Gumroad as the main selling platform Tripwire product idea (low-cost intro offer) 4. Strategic Collaborations + Partnerships Sneaker brands (big & small) Analog watch companies Notebook/journal brands Reusable water bottle brands Rental car agencies (for travel-based storytelling) Hair, makeup, beauty brands Local food brands (highlighting community experience) Event spaces/hotels for staycations and pop-ups 🎙️ CONTENT CREATION IDEAS 1. Podcasts The GrandValli Experience  (featuring creators like Falling Castles, Lena Pyland, Anastaja Braden) Story-first interviews focused on personal transformation, community, and creative hustle YouTube + Spotify episodes Companion short-form content for each episode (reels, audiograms) 2. Reels + Mini Scene Scripts Hair braiding service ads without showing the actual service Ice cream shop scene ("Sweet Like Summer") Teen + mom bonding over ice cream Hotel/staycation scenes Salon meal scene (connection-focused) Birthday celebration scenes Mistaken jacket / fate encounter scene Compliment-based bar scene Coffee shop compliments Scene as story vs. direct pitch (like sneakers completing a last-minute outfit) Character "Valli" to embody the brand (through story-driven reels) 3. Short Story Projects Emotional fantasy story about heroine (Jynara) battling internal good vs evil Inspired by heartbreak, betrayal, abandonment, and identity loss Magic tied to emotion and internal struggle Cliffhanger ending: Does she become the villain? Creatures born from emotions May expand to a full book if well received 4. Book Ideas Non-traditional memoir-style book Working title: Notes from the Sacred Middle ( I don't like this title. I don't even know if i want to write this.) Theme: Uncertainty, reinvention, betting on self Inspired by current life (no job, building something from scratch) Each chapter is a snapshot of mindset shifts and experiments Could include: Philosophical reflections Journal-style entries Manifestation + faith mixed with real struggle 🌀 PERSONAL GROWTH + MINDSET IDEAS 1. Experiments + Self Challenges 10-Day Shift challenge (beginning April 1) Rule of 100 (100 attempts = momentum builder) Journaling daily with pen and paper Manifestation through “surrender” and co-creation Building momentum via action over perfection 2. Blog + Social Content Themes “When people see your magic before you do” “Fear of success vs. fear of failure” “Notes from the Sacred Middle” (early preview of book content) Self-trust and betting on yourself Shrinking yourself to fit expectations Creative identity as a non-linear journey 👣 FUTURE-LOOKING IDEAS 1. GrandValli Growth Vision Traveling city-to-city to document small business stories Franchising GrandValli or building satellite teams in different cities Creating a living ecosystem where community members refer talent/services to each other Focusing on “creation over outcome” as a guiding principle 2. Brand Expansion Concepts GrandValli soundtrack/album Collaborating with musicians like Falling Castles or local artists Creating a sneaker doc or visual story tied to local culture Seasonal themes for projects (summer = braids, ice cream, glow; winter = cozy, resilience, etc.) Alot of this are just thoughts and ideas I have used ChatGPT to help me think through. Some of it I have done nothing with and some I have started and not finished. I guess only time will tell what actually comes to life and what works out.

I’ve spent the last eight months trying to figure myself out. Not in some aesthetic, Instagrammable way — I mean really figuring things out. Sitting with my thoughts. Unpacking old beliefs. Wondering who I’ve been and who I’m even trying to become.  To be honest, a quit my job with no real back up plan or plan at all. I just knew I couldn’t do this anymore and I have to take the risk and just go for it. There’s been a lot of untangling and a lot of trusting myself and growing in the process. And yeah… a breakup was the spark. I think that’s how it starts for a lot of us. Something cracks open and suddenly you’re looking at your life and asking:  “What the hell am I even doing?” The truth is, I’m still in it. Still rebuilding. Still learning. Still choosing to show up. That’s kind of what led me to create this planner. During this process, I’ve turned to a lot of things — books, posts, podcasts, meditating, manifesting, journaling, soul-searching… all of it. I was trying to find something that would help me make sense of everything I was feeling. But at some point, I realized so much of my life was just thinking… followed by more thinking… and then overthinking. So, I decided to do something different. I needed to start doing . I thought maybe creating  could help me move through it. And if I was going to create something that was helping me — something that reflected what I was learning, discovering, and unlearning — why not share it? Why not give it to someone who might be in the same place I am? I wanted something made from the middle.  So that’s what I made. Meet: The Sacred Middle Planner It’s for people like me — big-hearted, big-thinking, multi-layered folks who don’t always fit into neat boxes. People who are questioning everything: Who they are, What they believe, What kind of life they want now that the old one doesn’t feel right anymore, It’s not about being more productive. It’s about being more yourself  — whatever that looks like right now. It’s less of a planner and more of a pause. I made it using the same questions I’ve been asking myself. Some parts are about energy — not time. Some are for dumping messy ideas or tracking creative moods. Others are just there to remind you that small wins count  and that you’re still becoming, even if it doesn’t look like progress. It’s not a one-size-fits-all solution. It’s a starting point. A space to check in, reflect, and maybe ask yourself, “What do I actually want right now?” Not what you should  want. Just… what you  want. If you’re in the in-between — this is for you. If you’re in the part of the story where things feel unclear, where you’re shedding old versions of yourself and not totally sure who’s emerging yet — I get it. I’m there too. You don’t have to have it all figured out. You don’t need to be ready. You just need to start right where you are. I made a free 3-page preview  if you want to try it. And if it resonates, the full 22-page version is available on Gumroad . No pressure. No timeline. Just support. I hope it is helpful. Let me know if it is or it isn’t. Feedback and such is great. The middle is sacred. And so are you.

I read an article written by David Perrel titled, " Learn Like an Athlete. " I didn't just come across this article. I went down a rabbit hole that started on LinkedIn. What resonated with me from this article was his idea to learn like an athlete by having a knowledge plan. He pointed out how everyone seems to train other than knowledge learners from athletes to musicians. It struck me. It made me question what learning I have truly committed to after graduating college or what plan have, I come up with to continue to improve just for the sake of it. I realized I haven't truly committed to learning something new. i mean in my process to do GrandValli I am learning but I think that is different. I am working on things and learning as ideas strike me. I am not following an intentional plan to learn something specific. However, maybe it is time to change that. So, I made a list of some of the topics I would be interested in learning one at a time for the next 3 months and then the next and so on. Some of my ideas were public speaking, pitching, sales, negotiations, how to play the guitar, how to play the piano, how to play the drums, how to write a book, and songwriting to name a few. I think I have decided to go with public speaking for the next 3 months. I think there are so many people that are nervous when it comes to speaking in public and as one of them, I want to challenge myself to do something different. Plus, it would be great to learn how some of the great speakers in today's age have become great at speaking to thousands of people. As I go down this public speaking journey. I will share what I learn in the process. Hopefully, it helps somebody.

This post is inspired by a snippet of insight I received working on GrandValli and talking with my friend Felix Guillen , who's a music producer and who's stage name is Falling Castles. During our chat he spoke about how as an artist, sometimes it is the people around you that help you to identify your sound. It made me thing of the bigger idea of how the people around you can see the talents or skills you have that you may not even believe in. Sometimes it is what people see in you that serve as potential direction. As I bet on myself and navigate this journey of growth and self-discovery, I’ve found something powerful: people around you can recognize your gifts long before you do. I’ve recently been reminded of this through conversations with those I respect. Two old professors pointed out things about me I hadn’t fully embraced. One mentioned, “You have a voice, and you need to use it,” and the other said, “A 9-5 doesn’t suit you. You’re a creator with an entrepreneurial spirit.” A friend also shared, “You have so much wisdom, and you connect with people in a way that’s rare.” These comments, which were once just words, have slowly started to sink in, helping me see the magic I’ve struggled to accept in myself. It’s funny how feedback—whether it’s praise, criticism, or simply recognition—can often fall on deaf ears until we’re ready to hear it. I didn’t fully understand or value these compliments at first. But now, as I’m opening up and leaning into the idea that maybe I have more potential than I believed, I realize how others can help us see parts of ourselves we’ve been blind to. But here’s the catch: As much as others can inspire us, guide us, and reflect our strengths back to us, it’s crucial to learn to trust ourselves. The real challenge is not just listening to those around you, but also finding that balance between external validation and internal confidence. It’s about trusting your instincts while letting others show you new perspectives. For so long, I’ve been caught in people-pleasing, doing what I thought was expected of me, and ultimately shrinking myself to fit into a mold that wasn’t mine. But now, I’m learning that the key to growth is doing the things that feel right to me, even if they challenge my comfort zone. I’m learning to take up space, take chances, and pursue what truly excites me. I’ve realized that we often sell ourselves short, staying small because we’re afraid of stepping into the fullness of who we are. But if we take the time to listen to others and to ourselves, we begin to uncover parts of ourselves that have always been there, waiting to be acknowledged. So here’s my challenge for you: Pay attention to what others see in you. You might be surprised by the magic that’s already within you—magic that’s just waiting to be embraced. And at the same time, trust yourself. The more you lean into your own instincts, the more you’ll discover about who you are and who you’re capable of becoming. Don’t wait for the world to show you the way—take the leap and trust your path.

There’s this space, right in between where you’ve been and where you’re going, that feels... messy. It’s a place that no one really talks about, and maybe it’s because it’s hard to prepare for. Especially when you’ve lived a life where everything was laid out for you, and you followed the steps because that’s what was expected. But when the path stops being so clear, and you have to carve your own way, it’s not as easy as just following someone else’s blueprint. For most of my life, I didn't have to trust myself the way I do now. I just had to follow the steps. But now? It feels like I’m trying to create those steps out of thin air, while constantly questioning if I’m even going in the right direction. It’s overwhelming, honestly. But I also know it’s where I have to be, because sometimes, the only way to grow is through uncertainty. I’ve taken a big bet—one that has affected both my mental health and spirit for the better. I quit my job with no job lines up, no real savings, and no true back up plan. I’ve learned that it’s okay to risk what feels safe for what feels right. But here’s the thing: the financial aspect still hangs over me. That is the part that is most scary. How can you exist in this world truly without a sturdy financial foundation? For many creatives or anyone who doesn’t fit into the traditional mold, that pressure is real. The stress builds, and in those moments, it’s easy to forget that I can’t control everything. I have to trust myself, but I also have to let go. The balance is delicate and stressful. Every day I wake up excited and then within a few hours I am dreading or worried. I guess the question then really then becomes what am I doing or what am I willing to accept to test or try? I can’t let stress block my creativity, but sometimes, the pressure makes me second-guess everything. I’ve had to teach myself that it’s okay to go in blind, to not have everything figured out. I think there is a false comfort society teaches in having things all laid out and having a detailed plan. I think it gives you a false sense of confidence and stability, but it is almost like a frog in lukewarm water, eventually you could just die. There’s no perfect way to organize a dream, and the idea of finding the “right way” is often just a trap. My mind is constantly jumping from idea to idea, and at times, that’s overwhelming. But it’s also the fuel that keeps me going. It’s the curiosity, the love for learning, the excitement to see what could happen next. It's the beauty of adaptability and constantly changing the narrative. It's also being ok with the idea that at any moment I could land right on my face. It hasn’t been easy to trust myself, though. My brain loves to overthink, and I can get stuck in the weeds, wondering if I’m doing enough or if it’s all a mistake. But the more I act, the more I realize that action itself is the key. In so many ways it is about the momentum you build. I focus less on perfection and more on the ability to say, “I did that.” Once I’ve done something, I can step back, reflect, and improve. The process is part of the journey, and I'm learning that it’s not about rushing to the finish line but about living with intention, going slow, and accepting that I’m figuring it out as I go and a part of me will never know ahead of time if I am doing what is right. I used to think the fear of failure would be my biggest hurdle. But, oddly enough, it’s not. What holds me back the most is the fear of success—the fear of who I must become to achieve everything I want. It’s the uncertainty of who that person is and whether I’ll ever feel ready for it. And honestly, it’s the fear that if I fail, I might not be brave enough to take another risk again. But what I’ve learned, through this messy middle, is that failure isn’t the end. It’s a lesson. A test. And when the dust settles, I’ll still pick myself up and keep going. In this space of uncertainty, I’ve found pride in the little things—watching an idea come to life, even if it’s just seen by me or a few others. I’ve learned that the most profound moments are not always grand gestures, but the subtle ones that change lives in ways we don’t even realize. I’ve pitched visions, seen people buy in, and created opportunities for others to do their thing. I get to watch them thrive, and that’s a feeling I never take for granted. But even with all that, there are still days when the weight of multiple dreams feels like too much. My brain constantly switches gears—one moment I’m excited, the next I’m overwhelmed. I question myself. i question who I am supposed to me. I question what each dream truly asks of me, and I question if there is a way to make this all one person or not. The pressure of balancing it all can get heavy, but I’ve also learned to embrace it. My curiosity fuels my desire to keep learning, to explore, and to keep doing the things that bring me joy. Journaling has been my anchor, and having a notebook and pen close by means I’m always ready to capture the next thought or idea. It helps me stay grounded. So, where am I now? I’m redefining success. It’s no longer just about freedom or the external markers of achievement. Now, success is about learning who I am, wholeheartedly believing in who I can be, and giving myself permission to expand. Life is a continuous journey of figuring things out, and I’m here for it. As I enter this next phase of life, I’m embracing my 30s with a new sense of clarity. My 20s were filled with mistakes, and honestly, a lot of uncertainty, but I’ve learned from all of it. Now, in my 30s, I’m ready to embark on a more guided journey. I have more life experience, and I’m not afraid to take risks, even when the path isn’t clear. And here’s what I hope: When I look back at this time, I want to say I really tuned into who I was in the moment and went all in. I want to say that I took risks, lived unafraid, and grew as a person. And when the next phase comes, I want to do the same thing all over again.

Writing The Darkness Within  was, in many ways, my attempt to make sense of something painful—something we’ve all felt at one point or another. It’s that gut-wrenching feeling when someone you trust, someone you love, leaves when you need them the most. It’s the heartbreak that doesn’t fade with time. And it’s the betrayal that shakes you to your core, leaving you to question not just the people around you but your very identity. I’ve experienced the sting of heartbreak, betrayal, and abandonment enough to know that these moments change you. And that’s exactly what The Darkness Within  is about—how one moment of betrayal can unravel everything you thought you knew about love, trust, and even yourself. It’s a glimpse into a world where pain doesn’t just break you; it remakes you. And sometimes, the transformation isn’t into someone you recognize or even like. At the center of this story is Jynara, a character who embodies the struggle of always giving your best, only to feel like it’s never enough. She represents anyone who’s poured their heart into a relationship or a friendship only to feel abandoned or misunderstood. When people leave, it’s easy to internalize that abandonment—especially when you're made to feel like you’re the one at fault. Jynara’s journey is about giving into those feelings, embracing the darkest parts of yourself, and finding power in the process. Betrayal plays a huge role in Jynara’s transformation. It’s the breaking point—the moment when she decides to stop fighting who she’s becoming. She lets go of the person she once was, someone who believed love meant selflessness and sacrifice, and embraces the idea that pain can be turned into something else—something more powerful, even seductive. For her, betrayal becomes the catalyst for finding control, and in doing so, she taps into a dangerous, intoxicating power. It’s not an easy transformation, but it's necessary for her survival. The relationship between Jynara and Falsina is at the heart of this. What begins as love slowly transforms into something dark and toxic, as betrayal shatters Jynara’s trust. Falsina, the person she once relied on, becomes the one who ultimately pushes her into embracing her darker self. But in doing so, Jynara realizes that love, as she once understood it, can be a battlefield. It's not always about fighting for someone—sometimes, it’s about fighting for yourself, even if it means leaving everything else behind. When Jynara finally lets go of her former self, she steps into a new power. She’s no longer the person who bends to the will of others, trying to please them or make them stay. Instead, she commands attention, control, and fear. The dynamic shifts dramatically, especially when Falsina—who once saw Jynara as someone weak or lost—finds herself drawn to the new, confident, and unapologetically dark version of Jynara. And Exterra, who never truly understood Jynara, now feels threatened, realizing she could never compare to the new power that Jynara wields. As for the ending, I want readers to question everything. Is Jynara doomed to stay in the darkness she’s embraced, or is there still a chance for redemption? Does Falsina regret her betrayal? What about Exterra—will she finally understand the depths of Jynara’s pain and strength? These are the questions that will linger in your mind long after you finish reading. Because, in the end, the story is about more than just Jynara—it’s about the complexities of love, power, and the ways we cope with the hardest parts of life. Right now, The Darkness Within  is just a taste of something bigger. I’ve only scratched the surface of Jynara’s journey and the world I’ve created around her. If this story resonates, I would love to explore it further—dive deeper into the themes of betrayal, power, and transformation. But for now, it’s about seeing if the story connects with you, the readers. Does it make you want to know more? Does it make you question where Jynara’s path will lead? I’m excited to see where this story goes, and if you’re curious to see what happens next, don’t hesitate to let me know. Maybe this is just the beginning. Maybe not. But if the response is strong, there’s always room for more. Read the Actual Short Story If you’re intrigued by Jynara’s journey and want to explore her world further, you can purchase The Darkness Within  as a PDF. Dive deeper into the pain, betrayal, and transformation that shapes her story. I can’t wait for you to read it and see where it takes you. Click here to buy the PDF and uncover the darkness within. Thanks for reading, and don’t forget—sometimes, the darkest parts of us can lead to the most unexpected transformations.

When I first came up with the idea for GrandValli , I envisioned it as an online marketplace. I thought it would be a great way to support small businesses and entrepreneurs. But as I worked on the concept, something didn’t feel right. It felt too transactional, too impersonal. I wanted something deeper—something that fostered connection, not just commerce. So, I took a step back. I gave myself time to reflect, and during that time, I thought about the people in my life. Many of them were pursuing their dreams, creating their own opportunities, and building businesses or projects that mattered to them. I realized I didn’t just want to support them by buying one product or service. I wanted to create something that would inspire others to support them too, something that would build a community around their stories and dreams. That’s how GrandValli was born—not as a marketplace, but as a platform for storytelling, connection, and community. The imaginary world of GrandValli Why "GrandValli"? The name "GrandValli" is deeply personal to me. It’s inspired by Grand Junction, Colorado, and the Grand Valley, where this idea first took root. I wanted to pay tribute to the place that inspired me, so if GrandValli ever grows into something big, it will always carry a piece of its origin. The word "grand" represents something massive, something meaningful. And "Valli" is a play on "valley," which is often found between mountains and can sometimes be overlooked. To me, it symbolizes the idea that the grandest and most beautiful things are often found in unexpected places. GrandValli is about discovering those hidden gems—whether they’re people, businesses, or stories—and bringing them to light. The Power of Stories At its core, GrandValli is about storytelling. I believe stories have the power to connect us, to inspire us, and to remind us of what’s possible. Through GrandValli, I want to share the stories of businesses, entrepreneurs, and creatives in a way that makes people feel connected to them. I want these stories to inspire others to pursue their own dreams and to create a community where supporting small businesses and local creators becomes a natural, consistent part of our lives—not just a trend or a one-time thing. The Challenges Of course, this journey hasn’t been without its challenges. One of the biggest hurdles has been believing in my own ability to tell these stories in a way that does them justice. I want to meet the standard these stories deserve, and that can feel daunting at times. Another challenge has been building a team that shares the vision and can work with my creative, sometimes chaotic energy. Articulating what I see, feel, and imagine for GrandValli isn’t always easy, but I’m learning as I go. And then there’s the practical side—finding funding, creating a sustainable business model, and figuring out how to connect with an audience in a way that feels genuine and authentic. I don’t want GrandValli to be about chasing trends or forcing connections. I want it to be real, meaningful, and lasting. The Episode Series One of the ways I plan to bring GrandValli to life is through an episode series and mini-stories. These will be short, animated stories that combine visuals and narration to tell the story of GrandValli and the businesses we feature. The animation will feel like an illustrated book brought to life, with a touch of childlike wonder. I want it to remind people of the joy and creativity we all loved as children but sometimes lose as we grow older. Each business will have its own story, told through its interaction with GrandValli, as well as its individual journey. I hope this approach will inspire people to see the beauty in these stories and to feel a sense of connection to the people behind them. The Vision Ultimately, my goal for GrandValli is to create something that encourages people to tell their stories, connect with others, and build a community where creativity and courage thrive. I want GrandValli to be a place where people feel empowered to pursue their dreams and create a world that speaks to them. This is just the beginning of the journey, and I’m excited to see where it leads. Thank you for being part of it. Let’s create something grand together. Visit GrandValli here .

I am no longer concerned with what the world expects of me. I no longer carry the weight of who they said I should be. I release the noise of the past. I release the illusions of the future. I come home to the now , because I know this moment is where my power lives. I am the creator of my reality—and I take that personally. Every day, I choose my life with intention. I no longer surrender my story to chance or circumstance. Everything begins in my mind, so I care for it with love and discernment. If things haven’t worked out yet, it only means I am still being shaped by the wisdom I need. I meet that wisdom with openness, not resistance. I respond, not react. I listen deeply to myself—to my body, to my spirit, to the quiet voice behind the noise. I stretch beyond my comfort zone because I know: I am not who I used to be. I am evolving, and every day is a chance to meet a new version of me. I am grateful. I am growing. I am being surprised by life in beautiful, unexpected ways. I do not force. I do not chase. I do not beg. I attract, with ease, what is already mine: 💸 Money💡 Opportunity💖 Love🛤️ Alignment They find me. They follow me. They meet me exactly where I am. And I rise—effortlessly, abundantly, naturally. Because I was always meant to.

Love isn’t always immediate, and sometimes it’s about waiting, being patient, and trusting that the right time will come. That’s exactly what Saving  by Alex Aiono speaks to—a beautiful song that resonates deeply with my own feelings of love, longing, and the hope of something more. As I listen to Saving , I feel a connection to the lyrics, especially the lines: "Maybe we're, oh maybe we're never to know, But baby this, oh maybe it's inevitable, Pretend until the day we're more than just friends...I'm right on the edge. I'm waiting. I can taste it. I've been saving up for you." These words capture the feeling of waiting on the edge of something that could change everything—something that could be beautiful but uncertain. For me, it speaks to the idea of waiting for someone, patiently saving your heart for them, even when you don't know what the future holds. It's the feeling of knowing there’s something between you and this person, but the timing just hasn’t been right yet. This song is about more than just a romantic connection—it’s about the deep emotions that come with love. It’s about holding onto love for someone even when things are unsure. It’s about staying hopeful and patient, trusting that the right moment will come. It’s about the sweet, almost innocent feeling of resisting something so powerful yet being drawn to it anyway. There’s a beauty in saving yourself for that special person, in waiting for them to be ready, to be fully present with you. When you’ve waited for the right person, you don’t want to rush or waste the time you’ve spent growing into who you are. You want to be patient, be present, and make sure that what you’re building together is something lasting. Saving  reminds me of the power of patience in love. It isn’t about instant gratification; sometimes it’s about waiting for the right connection to blossom naturally. Even when you’re unsure of what the future holds, you keep saving that piece of your heart for the person who might one day come into your life fully. For me, this song reflects where I am now. I’ve been waiting, patiently and with hope, for the person I love, even though I don’t know how things will unfold. The song gives me comfort and excitement, reminding me that it’s okay to be patient with someone you love. It’s okay to wait for them to be ready to fully embrace what you have to offer. I hope that anyone reading this can take away the message that love is something to cherish and hold onto, but also something that requires patience. We often rush through emotions and relationships, expecting immediate results, but sometimes the best things in life take time. Love, whether you're in a relationship or not, is something worth waiting for. Saving  motivates me to keep writing, to express the emotions that so many of us struggle with. Writing has always been a way for me to connect with others, and this song inspires me to create more content that touches on the raw, real feelings we all face in relationships. Love may be complicated, but it’s also beautiful—and the process of patiently waiting for something real and lasting is worth every moment.

When I first heard Maybe I Am , I’ll be honest—I wasn’t here for the self-reflection. In fact, I kind of wore the song like a badge of honor. The defiance in it spoke to me. "So, what if I’m ruining my own life? It’s my life, I can do whatever I want." There was this rebellious streak in me, like, you don’t know me, and I’m going to live how I feel, consequences be damned. Also, who are you to tell me I am doing things to myself? Aren't you supposed to love me regardless? It felt like the perfect song to throw up in the face of anyone who tried to tell me I was making mistakes or that I should change. Maybe I Am  was my anthem for chaos, for living recklessly and unapologetically or at least holding onto that energy. But here's the thing about the song: it doesn't just stay in that rebellious space. The more I listened, the more it started forcing me to look at myself—really look at myself. And as much as I hated to admit it, the song was calling me out on my own toxic behaviors. The truth is, I was  sabotaging myself. I was controlling situations in ways that hurt, pushing people away just because I didn’t want to confront the things I was doing wrong, or I was in this endless defensive state where I did or said things I didn't really mean to hold my place. The line between my own stubbornness and self-destruction was getting blurry, and it felt like the song was just holding a mirror up to my worst habits. At first, I resisted the message. After all, how could I accept that maybe  I was the one causing my own grief? That would mean admitting that people who called me out—especially the ex I was still holding on to—were right. And who wants to do that? It’s hard to say, “Yeah, you hurt me, but you were right when you called me out on my shit.” Plus, let's be honest, we all love a bit of the toxicity. It's the unhealthy parts of us that want some exhilaration. But as the track played over and over, I started to hear something different in it. It wasn’t just a “fuck you” to everyone who tried to hold me accountable. It became an invitation to reflect on why I kept making the same mistakes, over and over again. I couldn’t ignore the fact that a lot of my struggles were self-inflicted. I was getting in my own way. And the more I listened to the song, the more I started to understand that maybe there was something liberating about accepting that part of myself. What’s hard to admit is that those toxic habits—the ones you hate but secretly love, because they feel comfortable or familiar—are intoxicating for a reason. It’s like you get hooked on the adrenaline of chaos, of fighting, of being your own worst enemy, because it’s the only thing that feels like control when everything else feels out of your hands. Maybe I Am  doesn’t offer a solution to that internal war; it just asks you to look at it. It says, “Hey, maybe you’re the problem, and maybe that’s okay. We don’t have to fix everything right now, but can we at least agree on that?” And that’s what the song gave me—permission to admit my flaws without immediately needing to change them. At least, not yet. It's as if Fletcher was saying, “You don’t have to be perfect. You don’t have to fix everything in one go. But can you just acknowledge that maybe, sometimes, you are your own worst enemy?” In the broader context of Fletcher’s album, Maybe I Am  feels like the starting point—a brutal wake-up call that sets the tone for everything that comes after. It's the first track, and it makes you face the fact that you’re the one getting in your own way. It's not about shame, it's not about guilt; it’s about recognizing that sometimes, the very things you’re blaming others for, you’re also doing to yourself. The rest of the album picks up from there, moving through healing, love, and self-discovery, but Maybe I Am  is one that forces you to confront the uncomfortable truth about yourself. So, maybe I am the problem sometimes. Maybe you are, too. But simply acknowledging that—without the pressure to fix it immediately—could be the first step toward real change. Or, you know, do what you want, but at least own the fact that you're the one causing the damage.